Thursday, March 7, 2013

Getting Back On Track

So lets get real for a second....

As you can see I haven't posted anything for a while. The last things I posted were last minute, as I was traveling and hadn't finished them beforehand so I could schedule them to go out on their own. I talked a little bit about my right now in one of those posts, but I want to elaborate...for my purposes.

Somewhere within the last couple of months, my life has spun out of control. It seems as if everything took off around the same time. I've been going like this for so long, I can't even remember how long things have been this way. There used to be a time at work when things moved along at a snail-like pace. I was able to get work done in a timely manner as well as take care of some personal business on the side. (It's hard to take care of personal business during the work week when you work during most businesses office hours).

Somewhere along the work road, tasks started being handed out left and right. I started being unable to keep up with my tasks in my head and started feeling overwhelmed with all I knew I had to do, but couldn't remember. On top of that, things in my personal life were starting to spin out of control as well. Not being able to take care of personal business at work began to affect leisure time I had at home to wind down from the days going-ons. I got behind in things I needed to get done for church. I discovered I truly enjoyed blogging but was unable to blog...not only that, but I was unable to delve into other bloggers websites like I wanted to, so I felt I wasn't able to enjoy the blog experience as a whole. Coming home and having to figure out what to cook, having to figure out what to wear for work the next day, doing my hair which ranged anywhere from a couple of minutes to 20 and 30 all just started to be too taxing.

My mind doesn't work as well as it should once I become overwhelmed. When I get to the point where I feel like I have too much stuff going on and I can't get a hold of it all, my mind stops retaining information and I have a harder time grasping on to information. I go into get-things-done mode. This mode allows me to get stuff done, but what's produced isn't as effective or efficient as it would be if I weren't overwhelmed. Also when I'm in this mode, I feel the need to make myself make time for fun, but even fun starts to feel like another task being added on to my list of things to do.

There are so many things I need to get done, but the truth is, I don't want to do any of it. I want a fresh start with everything. But, life doesn't work that way. My hope is that by the end of this month things will have slowed down everywhere (work, church, home). I want work things to get done at work. I want church things to be done in a timely manner. I want my leisure time to be just that and I want to spend time doing things I want to do and enjoy doing...not using my leisure time to worry about a task list.

I wish I could get away...for at least a week. But since I can't, I'm trying all I can to trick my mind into not feeling so overwhelmed. Here are just a few things I've realized I need to do.

1. Sleep
My CB told me I had bags under my eyes; bags I'd noticed before, but thought were figments of my imagination. Nobody every said anything about them, so I thought I was making them up. I guess not. I let myself slept for 10.5 hours last night!!...and I didn't feel guilty about it. Although there were things I should have been doing, I was tired, so I slept. I felt like I could have come home tonight and done the same thing, but the task list awaits me. I told my sister about my sleep and she told me about sleep debt. Sleep debt is the difference between the amount of sleep you should be getting and the amount of sleep you actually get. I read this article and figured out I need to repay my sleep debt. This realization made me feel even better about all that sleeping I did yesterday.

2. Relax
I need to get more structured about my home time. There are a number of things that need to get accomplished while I'm at home. It helps me to write things down and actually see all I need to do...I'm a visual learner. I need to see myself chopping away at the task list (it's that Libra organization in me...see here). I've made a list for my work tasks but I've been avoiding this for my home tasks...NO MORE!! I've got to nip this thing in the bud...and quickly.

While needing to get my tasks accomplished, I still need to make time for me. I have, however, decided to cut back on things like blogging, watching TV, being on the computer/iPad, etc. Even though I haven't really had time to do any of these things recently, they are all things that consume so much unintended time. Truth be told, I've missed blogging so much because it's a getaway for me. I'm so glad to have people actually following me, reading my material, and engaging with me through my blog. I WILL respond to every single comment and I will be more engaging in other bloggers websites. So, because I want to do that, I will not be posting as much...BUT I promise at least one post a week (for now).

3. Health
Stop skipping over things I need to be doing regularly...drinking more water, moisturizing skin - from head to toe, eating right, etc. Skipping over these things doesn't save that much time and will only hurt me in the long run.

I'll never allow myself to get back to how things were in 2010. I always reference this point in my life because I want to remember what it was like to feel that way so I can always avoid getting to that point again. I will not do it. Nothing is worth that.

So, I'm in recovery!! LOL..gotta get things back on track!

How do you guys deal with stress and feeling overwhelmed?!?

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  1. What an interesting post! You've made a lot of great points here, Mionna! You've basically described my problem...I feel like I'm off track. I'm overwhelmed and not sleeping enough and the food thing is one of the unhealthy ways I'm dealing with it all! So glad to read your thoughts tonight to get to this conclusion!

    I'm finding that we all get overwhelmed, as that's just life and it's so hard trying not to let it get to us. But, we have to find balance, let some things go, and like you said, fit in some leisure time as well. Again, so hard! My aunt and I were just talking about this very thing tonight! We're trying to do it all when no one can do it all!

    I definitely need to take a step back and not just get on the same track that leads to where I am right now, but ensure that I create a healthier approach to life as a whole! I'll be praying that you can do the same!!!

    Btw, I so didn't notice your bags the other day but you know how we get caught up in conversation!

    1. Thanks for you thoughts. Finding, there's a concept. I know that's exactly what I need, but it's getting to that point that I'm afraid of. I know it will be a lot of work and, quite frankly, I'm tired. I don't want to do anything. However, I know that won't help anything at all. I'm not a quitter and having to give some things up, makes me feel like a quitter. I guess I need to get to the point where I can be comfortable with having to let some things go, but that's hard for me especially when I know people are counting on me to get it done.

      At this point, I'm just going through the motions. I want some different because I've been doing this for way too long. But, I just have to be patient and do what I can. That's all I can really do.

      And the bags are think I hide them well.

  2. I know this feeling very well. I've been living in it for the last 5 months to a degree. But I've felt it at different intervals as well. Is it really a Libra thing to make lists? If so, I might be the poster child for Libras everywhere. LOL

    I keep a notebook with me at all times. It's for everything. Stuff they say at work, stuff I've got to do at home, reminders of other things. I do that because as soon as I write it down, it feels like part of the burden of remembering is lifted. I know whatever it is is in the notebook. Then I get great satisfaction in crossing items off that list.

    I went through a year from down under before and I literally had to treat myself with crocheting. I would say for every x amount of time spent doing this work stuff at home (which I do not like to do, but sometimes I have to to catch up, etc.) I will crochet for x amount of minutes. Let's just say that was the year I made lots of hats and scarves and blankets....

    And I think telling myself not to feel guilty for having "me" time is also key. When there's a lot going on I usually skip taking time for myself, and I've learned that that never works. Sometimes I have to take a mental health day at work just to give myself a break so I can function better when I return.

    I'm glad you got your sleep in and I hope you come from under the constraints of deadlines and all that's going on really soon. :-)

    1. Oh Libby,

      You are such a sweetheart!!I think we all go through this at some point in our lives. I was just telling my friend last night that life is like a series of hills. We spend time pushing our carts (with our lives in them) up the hill only to jump on top of our cart full of stuff to joyfully and easily ride it down the hill...only to get to the bottom and do it all over again! We, as young adults, are just getting into the thick of things. Our hills are getting a little higher and our carts are getting a little fuller. We just have to figure out how to handle life when we're riding uphill and enjoy it...whether we're going uphill or downhill.

      You should really read that post I linked to (at the very bottom, I describe Libras). Almost every summation I read about Libras is pretty spot on, but I thought that one was a great one to share. Since I've gotten my iPad, I kinda do the notebook thing with that, but just for certain things. Like, I keep my grocery lists on it, I put conversations I need to have with people, things I want to blog about, etc. etc. It comes in handy, but again, it helps with my memorization to actually write things out.

      To be honest with you, I've struggled with wanting to bring work home lately. I feel like I should do some catching so I won't be so overwhelmed when I get back to work. What's been stopping me is my busy personal I had time, I would probably grab my computer and start working. I know I've promised myself never to work at home again, but...I feel like it would help. I guess if push comes to shove and I HAVE to, I could take your advice about treating myself. I take at least 1 to 2 days off work each month, so I'm doing that...but it doesn't help to go back and things piled up on your desk...LOL! But, you definitely have to take care of yourself.

      Thank you so much for your words of wisdom. I really do appreciate it so very much!!

    2. You know what? Right after I finished writing my response, I went and re-read that post. I remembered reading it before, but I didn't remember fully reading the part about the Libras. You are right. It is spot-on. At work we did this personality test based on colors and I found out that I'm between a blue and yellow. Blue people are "feelers" and they're always trying to make peace, etc. Whenever someone's in need, they stop what they're doing and listen, but often times it means their own plates get full because they get behind on things for themselves. It was very helpful information as well. Who knew someone could categorize me so well without even knowing me. :-)


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